My name is Darrick Abdul-hakim. I am a 20-year-old Muslim brother
living in the United States. I currently attend Cupertino University,
which wont be for long since I am transferring to a University that
suits my major in more malaise.I major in Old Hebraic and Arabian
Literature and History. Semitic Literature is the fancy name for it.
I converted to Islam on Oct 12, 2001 during Isha Prayer. So far I must
say, the Islamic quest has been nothing less than indispensable. There
is nothing novel about my conversion, but it�s an interesting one
I grew up as a Christian who knew a good deal of information. I was very
excited to express my Christian belief to my friends, co-workers and
colleagues. However, at the age of 17, life became a bit more
complicated than before. I began to observe my fellow Christians in more
depth. I was shocked how most didn�t practice the Christian faith
to 100% expectation.
To make matters worse, I became increasingly dissatisfied with the
Biblical scriptures. For example, the belief that Jesus claimed to be
god was a church addition. Jesus certainly never asserted that he was
the God of the world.
I tried to save my faith in Jesus, but, It was time to go, I needed a
more realistic understanding to the world. So, I prayed to Jesus, trying
to see if there still lies an answer. But, as time went on, I began to
notice that the Church life was not it.
I wondered if I would retract into Jesus, though, that never happened.
So, from then on I left the Christian life and bid it farewell. Not only
that, but also my faith and belief in God, slipped quietly out the door.
I was now an agnostic, not knowing what faith to follow, or knowing if
we are surrounded by God or not, I was just lost in a chaotic world. I
wasn�t an atheist, I was just confused about who, or what God
Things didn�t pick up. Immediately following my rejection of the
faith and church, my grandma died past away. If I didn�t question
life before, I certainly did now. I began to have thoughts about the
Universe whether we are really humans at all. I began to ask why I
should remain moral (I refused to drink because I felt it was a sin,
interesting for someone who didn�t have a faith or believed in a
As things tolled in that life would never return to it�s former
state, I began to question my own existence. I began to contemplate
whether I should be here or not. I had serious thoughts of suicide. I
wanted to quit my job because I was coming under stress, unfortunately
for me, life just began, and I was only 18.
Alhamdulilah, I had the comfort of friends to keep me from committing
such a catastrophe. But, I was still without a faith, life couldn�t
get much better from my end, and I still didn�t know how to cope
with my grandmother�s death.
Eventually, I began to read for myself. I ran across a book, which was
discussing the world�s faiths, and I came across Islam. I simply
never had given Islam the thought at all. Immediately following that, I
was on my way to work when I saw a man with the Quran in his hand.
I asked him if I could see it, Alhamduliah, he didn�t let me see
it, he gave it to me.
I was stunned, excited, and compelled. I went to read it and was amazed
by its literature; the things I didn�t notice before struck me. It
was comprehensible, and lucid for the layperson like myself. Although,
recent events would make me more interested in Islam than before.
On September 11th, I saw the world trade centers go crashing down. I
wondered to myself, be that Islam. Could it be, that the peaceful faith
be this bad?
But, as the more I read, the more I found out that Islam was separate
from such characteristics. Islam by all means is peace. We certainly
wouldn�t judge Christianity by the barbaric abortion clinic
bombings, or we wouldn�t describe Judaism as an ethnic faith that
just wants a Jewish world from the Israeli who assassinated the Israeli
prime minister in 1995 because he felt the Prime minister was an
apostate of God.
Why must we do the same to Islam?
But, 9/11 impelled me to learn more about Islam. I bought and read a
total of 10 biographies on Muhammad (saw). I was amazed by his life. I
didn�t look at Muhammad from a Christian perspective, but from a
Historical, Political and cultural understanding. Fortunately, for me, I
was so happy with the life and understanding of Islam, I decided to
convert. I converted by the conviction of Islam�s authentic. I was
on a quest for the faith, and I found it. Alhamdulilah.
Now, after my conversion, I have read an infinite amount of books on
Islam. I still am currently engaged in Biographies of Prophet Muhammad
(saw). But, life is much better. I was now in a faith, I believed in
God, and life got better.
Salaam Alaikum Abdul-Hakim